Monday, April 18, 2011

my heart is broken...

 
My Father went in the hospital in January and since then he was in and out of the hospital four times.  He also, spent two weeks in a rehab facility where he was doing great until he got hit with the Flu.

In between hospital stays I was taking care of him.  He put up an amazing battle to get better, but on Thursday, April 14, 2011 he slipped from this world while I had left the hospital to go home for dinner.

I was stunned because the Doctor told me my Dad had improved so much he would be moved to a regular room the next day.  I never expected the phone call saying he had taken a turn for the worse!  By the time I rushed back to the hospital he was gone.

Now, I'm playing games in my head.  -  Perhaps, I should have taken him to the Dr. sooner.  I should have asked this question or that question...I shouldn't have left the hospital to go home when I did.  I know I need to give it rest, but I just wanted him to get better so badly. 

 Leo was a World War II Veteran, and a kind, sweet person.  He never complained about anything ever.  He was mentally with it, too; and he loved baseball.

The funeral is the end of this week. 
The funeral is this Friday, Good Friday.

My Dad was well loved and will be truly missed.

3 comments:

  1. Oh Linda, I am so sorry for your loss. I know that nothing helps at a time like this, but know that I am thinking of you. Debbie

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  2. I am so sorry to read this post. You Dad just looked like the most happy person ever. I lost my Dad 20 years ago & I still miss him every single day. I use to do what you are now doing wondering if I did this or if I did that, but you did the right thing. You loved your Dad. He loved you & he still does. He's now entwined in your heart. Just reach inside & he is still there.

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  3. (((HUGS)))
    So sorry for your loss. Do not blame yourself for not being there when he passed. I lost my FIL 3 years ago. He waited until he was alone in the hospital to pass. I like to think that he did not want to see our sadness in his passing and that he waited until we were gone to continue upon his journey.

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